A Few Short Letters to 2016...

10:34 PM KyannaSimone 0 Comments

Dear 2016,

You're a new kind of stupid...

Just kidding, but let's be real you weren't the best to me, but you taught me a lot, 2016, and for that I thank you. 

I understand that I needed to go through the hardships in order to enjoy the good times and realize that there is more to a year than just "living in it." By this, I mean that I have learned to fall in love all over again, I learned to let go of my fears and let life take me where it will. If I was going to "take chances and make mistakes," I first had to take chances and then make mistakes. Without learning and understanding this concept, I wouldn't have fallen in love, I wouldn't have given myself the chance to be with someone who I feel completes me, I wouldn't understand what it means to have a soulmate and most importantly, I wouldn't have been true to myself. 


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Dear 2016,

You're a new kind of stupid...

Just kidding, but let's be real you weren't the best to me, but you taught me a lot, 2016, and for that I thank you. 

This year you've helped me understand that everyone is only meant to be in your life for a certain amount of time and when that time is up, it's up. There was no use in holding on to dead relationships with family members and friends. There was no use in trying to get people to understand what they mean to you and the impact they have on your life. This year I realized that I needed to drop the negative energy and create positive ones. If I was going to go through this year with the trials and tribulations, I needed the right people by my side going forward, and you taught me to "live and let go."

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Dear 2016,

You're a new kind of stupid...

Just kidding, but let's be real you weren't the best to me, but you taught me a lot, 2016, and for that I thank you. 

Living in the moment was something I struggled to do. I always needed to plan and coordinate and then plan some more. When I realized that the moment was something to live for, I did and it was enjoyable. 2016, you taught me that every adventure doesn't have to be regulated. Every journey doesn't have to be sought out weeks before. Part of the adventure is living in the moment and going for what's in front of you instead of planning for something to be in front of you. My nights have become longer and my conversations have become deeper.

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Dear 2016,

You're a new kind of stupid...

Just kidding, but let's be real you weren't the best to me, but you taught me a lot, 2016, and for that I thank you. 

"Keep your friends closer and your enemies far away." It's usually, "keep your friends close and your enemies closer," but you know what? That's what I took away from this year. I understood that if I wanted to be successful I needed to be around successful people, If I wanted to keep my light shining bright I needed to not be around people that weren't going to help that process. I started to keep these people far away from me. I started to realize that these people loved the drama, loved the suspense and the instability of life. They fed off of that drama to keep them motivated and I just didn't operate that way, because of that they became enemies and I had to let them go. I realized that I needed to stop fighting other people's battles and fight my own. If I was going to conquer this life, I needed to do it my way and not the way of anyone else.

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Dear 2016,

You're a new kind of stupid...

Just kidding, but let's be real you weren't the best to me, but you taught me a lot, 2016, and for that I thank you.   

Family can surprise you in the best and worse way. This year you taught me that it was time to leave the nest and be on my own. By my will or not, it wasn't really up to me, but it was something that had to happen in order for me to grow up and finally take charge of my own life. Sucks that I had to lose an important, key figure in the process, but what needed to be done, needed to be done. Because of this I learned to stand on my own two feet instead of crawling on my knees. Life has currently gotten better, but this past summer it was one of the worst things I've experienced. I had to turn my back on people I've known for my whole life in order to live my OWN life and once I came to terms with that, my life only became easier. The bond was already weak, it just needed to be broken. 

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Dear 2016,

You're a new kind of stupid...

Just kidding, but let's be real you weren't the best to me, but you taught me a lot, 2016, and for that I thank you. 

I. AM. ME. I can only be who I am from this point forward. I can't apologize for the person someone wants me to be. Because I will never be that person and I will never amount to anything in their eyes. I will never be that person because I will always be a failure to them and I refuse to live in that shadow. I will never be that person because I can't and will not allow myself to be controlled.  I will never be that person because I know who I am and I want to live for me and not for the likes of others. If others like me then that's great, but if not then that's okay, because I've learned to live with that fact. I am the person who I want to be by my standards, I have people in my life who support me and don't wish to control me. The friends I have today and the ones who I've known the longest and the ones who want me in their lives for me. The family MEMBER I have in my life loves ME for ME and doesn't want to change who I've become and who I'm becoming. The partner I have in my life is loving me because I. AM. ME. The people I've lost along the way are the ones who don't see me for who I can be. I can only hope to meet new people who will support who I am in that point and who I will be becoming as well. I love me more than ever and that's the most important because 
I. AM. ME. 



Thank You 2016,

Xo. KissTheRunner