Why "The Number" is important to me.

3:09 PM KyannaSimone 1 Comments

I never thought I would see this number on a scale again. But as the months went by, I knew I would. 184lbs and what is I am. Nine pounds gained since May 2014. Now, to me that’s not too bad, yes I did gain weight but that’s nine pounds in an eight month time span, so about a pound a month? I mean it’s nothing to be proud of but I understand that this is a journey and not a sprint.

While recently reflecting on my weight gain, I asked myself “why was it so important,” “why did does it matter?” “Am I looking to impress anyone?” And I thought about it for a while, because the only thing I kept hearing in my head was “it’s not about the number, it’s about how you feel.” Which I do agree and then I found myself saying…

“I feel great, but I am NOT at a healthy weight for my age.” 

And that’s when it hit me that I was not at a healthy weight. The whole purpose of this journey is to become healthy to live a healthier lifestyle, to stop my joints from hurting all the time, to reduce the pain in my back, knees and even my feet, to me that’s living healthy and living in longevity.

As the number on the scale decreases I become stronger, faster and my BMI decreases. This is why the number one the scale is important to me. It reminds me while I keep putting in the work I’m becoming better than the person who I was yesterday and that’s who I want to be.

Has anyone ever had this issue before? Do you rely on the scale or go by how you feel?
PS: It’s snowing here in Brooklyn. I guess I’ll be snowed in for a while.

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1 comment:

  1. I literally feel the exact same way. It is so hard to balance and describe these feelings and thoughts. I feel great about myself and confident but also strive for a healthy weight. I think it's weird for us to think because we are so conditioned to think that wanting to lose weight is purely for appearance and the need to be smaller. It is also hard when people tell you "you shouldn't be trying to lose" when all you want is health! Love this post girl!